Love, Redemption and Salvation - Why We Need the Positive Fatherly Love from God

It is becoming increasingly clear to me just how important love is. We all need love - but not the love of others to support what we are - but the love of God to correct what we are.

In simple terms, God sends His light - which we know as conscience or what we know in our heart - which shines a light on us. If we are willing to become still and sit still for this light, it will totally disabuse us of any illusions about ourselves. It will show you, in the clear light of truth, just what a fallen creature you are, and selfish and phony to boot.

Of course, this does not sound like love. But if you think about it, this light makes us aware of truth. It is also not supportive or reinforcing of the hateful, deceitful, selfish thing we have become. Instead it is like a wet blanket. Were this light to judge, resent or hate us, we would have an excuse to resent it back. Or to fee hurt . But since it is impartial but honest, we have no excuse to hate it.

Were you to identify with this light from God, and no longer reject the truth, but accept it willingly (not resentfully). Then you would be shriven of error, cleaved from the error, you would cling to the Light.

It's like choosing sides. There are those rare moments in life when we chose between two people, two differing ways, or two paths. You either go with one or go with the other. You either accept one or accept the other.

So it is if you are blessed to become still enough to see that there really is a Truth, and that this Truth does not hate you, but shows yo the truth about yourself. If you believe this Truth (this light of Truth with a big T), you are rejecting the lies. And when you reject the lies, you are thereby believing and accepting the truth.

You have made the choice. The dye is cast. You have moved or inclined toward God and His Truth, and turned away from the lies and the evil source of these lies.

When you were prideful and egotistical (wanting to be proud) you believed the lies and wanted to believe the lies that supported your pride. Even the lie that God does not exist supports the ego in its lonely struggle in which it takes pride and subtly blames God or fate.

But when you no longer want to be proud, but jut want to be honest, then you are compatible with the truth. Now, step by step, you will begin to reject every lie that you ever believed. It will no longer be a matter of choosing, but simply of seeing, in the Light, the lie as the lie and the Truth as the Truth. The Truth shines a light on the lie so you can see it for what it is and shrink away.

Because our faulty personality was built upon millions of lies and layer upon layer of denials, you new personality will be composed of believing rightly and then acting rightly.

Right action is easy. When you see a wrong course, one that leads to tragedy, it is simple to simply not go that way.

The exercise of right decisions because of right beliefs will lead to a new personalty and a new way of life founded in Truth.  It is all so simple.  

Worries, Doubts and Fears? Lost Between your Ears - Pastor Roland's Got a Brand new Meditation

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How to Deal with Worries Doubts and Fears

by Roland Trujillo 2012


Pastor, I'm in a hurry

But I need your advice.

All I do is worry

And rethink everything twice.


I worry about this and I worry about that.

Whether I'm too thin or maybe too fat.


Did I remember to feed the cat?


Did I turn off the television?

Did I wait until the dryer stopped spinning?

Did I turn on the answering machine?

Was that scary thing real or was it a dream?


Will I ever meet someone?

With me, does anyone ever have fun?

Did I commit the unpardonable sin?

When I arrive will they let me in?


I dread having to give a speech tomorrow.

Why am I always behind a hard act to follow?

I'm worried about today,

I'm still worrying about yesterday.

Does my hair look okay?


Pastor, I need your help and suggestion.

But I'm worried you won't answer my question.

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Don't worry or fear,

Pastor Roland is here.

He's a Pastor

And he's got an answer.


Relax and get a good night's rest.

Pastor Roland's answers are the best.

He's working on an answer for you;

It will be ready soon.



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Thank you for your excellent question.

And let me just mention

I would like to assure you that you are not alone.

Most people get lost in thoughts

Which soon take on a negative tone.


Meditation is the repair

To worries, doubts, fears and despair.

So grab your mobile device and read my poem.

And read it on your desktop when you are home.


Your problem is you are too lost between your ears.

You dwell on the morbid and fall into fears.

You're too lost in daydreams, thoughts and schemes,

Replacing reality with fantasy scenes.


Things are never as bleak as they seem.

Your unhappy thoughts and fears are like a bad dream.

Just meditate to wake up and see

They are just thoughts and not reality.


When we're young we dream of being an athlete

Or entertainer without compare.

But when we get older, our daydreams become nightmares.

We develop the habit of escaping from our cares

The mental world becomes so strong

Soon it's in charge and bossing us around.


The solution is elementary -

Learn to stand back mentally.

Become the thinker instead of the thought

Soon you'll be in charge, as you ought.


Get out of your thinking and fantasy

And meditate for objectivity.

Become aware of your hand

Then you'll understand.


Watch the thoughts go passing by.

Don't get involved.

Just watch them go and kiss them goodbye,

They will tease and taunt and continue to try

To pull you in to get involved.


Just remember that no issues by worry were ever solved.

And as the thoughts go marching by

From your mental grandstand wave goodbye.


Things are never as bleak as they seem.

Your unhappy thoughts and fears are like a bad dream.

Just meditate to wake up and see

They are just thoughts and not reality.


Once you become centered and grounded

You'll see that most of your fears are unfounded.


Get out of your thinking

And the emotions in which you are sinking.

Mentally step back

And calmly observe your panic attacks.

Remain neutral and mentally distant.


Don't offer resentful resistance.

Struggling makes negative thoughts worse.

Just remember the following verse:


Things are never as bleak as they seem.

Your unhappy thoughts and fears are like a bad dream.

Just meditate to wake up and see

They are just thoughts and not reality.


Don't sit around and ruminate

Let me show you how to meditate.


It's so easy, you will say "wow."

"Nobody ever showed me how."

I can get you started now.


You will be able to discern what is true

And you'll intuit what to do.

Worries, doubts, and fears will be a thing of the past

When you learn to watch them and let them pass.




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"I Can't Forgive Myself" Don't be This Person Any Longer - a Poem of Finding Peace of MindHow to Forgive Yourself

“I fled Him down the nights and down the days
I fled Him down the arches of the years
I fled Him down the labyrinthine ways
Of my own mind, and in the midst of tears
I hid from him, and under running laughter.”
― Francis G. Thompson, The Hound of Heaven.


I had a little work related stress,
And my apartment was a mess.
My boyfriend left town,
And my Internet was down.

I had a little anxiety
But no one could really help me, as you will see.

I'll spare you the details of what happened since
Remembering the first few months just makes me wince.
Don't get me wrong, I'm sure they all meant well,
But my life became a living hell.

Despite all my troubles, I want you to know
There is a very happy ending though.
But first I had to humble my pride
And give up all the hate that was inside.
Let's begin at the start
When I used to think I was smart.
So here goes . . . .

"I've got a little work related stress,
And my apartment is a mess.
My boyfriend left town,
and I'm feeling a little down"

"Let's try this and see if it works for you.
Just to take the edge off and relax you too."

I'm not trying to complain.
At least he gave what I had a name.
But why was I still in pain?

Why did everything irritate me;
Why did I get angry at everything I see;
Why was I lonely, bitter and sad?
When others were happy it made me feel bad.

I wondered: Am I just a chemical imbalance?
Am I just a body for men to use?
What they call love just makes me confused.

My parents kept saying I must be a success,
But nothing seemed to give me happiness.
What good is it if I succeed
If no one can give me an answer to what I need?

I went to the chaplain and she was nice.
She prayed with me, stayed with me and called me twice.

But why does everyone just want to comfort me?
Why can't I overcome, move on and and just be free?
Everyone is helpful and kind,
But why couldn't I leave my issues behind?

I heard someone talk about being free indeed,
It sounded like just what I need.
I joined a church and went twice a week.
Hoping to find the answers I seek.
I studied, sang and prayed,
But became uneasy the longer I stayed.

After the excitement wore off,
When I was home by myself,
I had to admit what I could tell no one else:
Inside I was still the same old self.

Something was missing. It is hard to describe.
I still felt empty inside.
So I kept on searching for the meaning of life.

Don't get me wrong.
It's nice to sing a song,
And memorize a Scripture or two.
But if the the dogma is rigid and the words insipid,
It's something I would rather not do.

I found another group that was all acceptance and hugs.
They had drums and a guitar (but no drugs).
There was clapping and singing, and swaying.
Positive thinking and lots of praying.

I don't want to be rude
But I had to conclude
They tried their best,
But like many men, they failed the test.
Decent and friendly and nice guys,
But just more emptiness in disguise.

So I threw in the towel
It was all beginning to sour.
I went back to my weed and speed.
But it didn't take me long to see that it was wrong.
Now I could see
it just wasn't me.

I needed more than people's comfort and being nice,
More than the drugs, the hugs, the songs and the words;,
More than study and the palliative prayer.
I wanted the answer that sets me free
To move forward and be a new me.

I found an Eastern philosophy
Which I heard about on TV.
And I also tried East/West spirituality.
They talked about enlightenment and tranquility,
But they struck me as selfish and all about oneself.
Like being self preoccupied and sitting on the shelf.
Something about it just didn't feel right.
It was close to what I wanted, but not quite.

I went back to the university.
It was a relief to talk about sustainable development and diversity,
And not about religion or eternity.
The rebellion and free lifestyle were inviting.
The football and parties were exciting.

But it struck me as hollow and empty,
A juvenile rebellion against authority,
Or an intellectual rebellion against God, you see.
And the shallow selfish people I saw graduate
Made me want to hesitate.

I began to resent them all for not being there for me.
First my dad then every other authority.
I resented them for their shallow answers
Or for their glib answers
To persuade me, to intimidate me
To speak condescendingly.
It was all about party time,
The bottom line,
Or the party line.

I could not let go of judgment and resentment
toward those who robbed me of my contentment
I was full of contempt for their weakness
And anger over their pretense.

And I resented myself too.
I was so full of hate, what else could I do?

I resented everyone for not having love for me.
I was filled with anger and blame, it was plain to see.
But at least I was on the verge of seeing what was wrong with me.

Each day at the park I watched the little kids play.
Full of happiness and joy and never a bad day.
I pondered the difference between them and me.
And slowly I began to see.

What I was like when I was small I had forgot.
There's only one difference between them and me.
I am resentful and they are not.

Thinking back to earlier years,
I began to see what started my decline to emptiness and tears.

I resented my mom and my dad, you see.
I especially resented my dad for not being there for me.
I hated my life too and everything about myself,
And then it spread over the years to everyone else.

I resented my peers, my partner, my kids and my luck too.
My job, my boss, and My God! Even You.

Resentment became a way of life.
The loser's way of avoiding strife.
Judging and angry at everything, it seemed harmless at the time.
A way to judge underneath, but pretend everything was fine.

It gave me a secret ego satisfaction -
A loser's way of getting even.
It was a secret reaction.
On the surface I smiled, but underneath I was was judgmental and mean.

"I'm a nice person" I would always say.
"Just look at all I've done for others today."
But it was service out of guilt for resenting their demands.
I could claim to be a martyr that no one understands.

All of this and much more I began to see
I couldn't duck the truth, it was as plain as it could be.
But now instead of resenting truth, I was saddened about what I had discovered,
About the sneaky hate and hostility that had been uncovered.

I could not change myself, though regretting what I see.
So now I was in quite a quandary.
Wanting to change but not knowing just how,
My dilemma was finally solved, and I'll show you now:

When something about yourself you see
That you would rather not be.
But you've found that struggle and trying just make things worse.
The solution is so simple, it is found in the following verse.

Just regret what you see about yourself.
Don't try to charge with any effort.
Quietly bear the brief pain of seeing - just do that and nothing else.
It is God's light, we call conscience, which is making you see.
God is present, and the sadness is in His Light by which you see.

When you know the sadness you feel is because of God's good Light
This realization is a great comfort to the soul who now yields to what is right.
The changes you want will happen in God's due time.
So just relax and you'll be fine.

I walked around and was sad about what I discovered.
But I sensed that my innocence and sweetness I had recovered.
So I just bore the pain without trying to change.
Soon I began to shed a quiet tear over what I saw about myself.
I was sad, then glad, then relieved, I must confess,
To just come clean and let God clear up my mess.

I experienced something profound,
Repentance I had found.
Not of myself but of He.
God's light was repenting me.

It was like a purging and catharsis of my wrong
What I couldn't do myself, He can because He is kind and gentle and strong.
First the pain, followed by sadness, then the soul bursts into song,
Because I know the quiet joy that He has forgiven me of my wrong.

After I was purged I was free to see
One by one, what was wrong with me.
Each time the same process: first pain, sadness then relief.
After being sorry, I found peace beyond belief.

Every day a little pain to bear,
Regret, forgiveness and then joy without compare.

Each day the pain is less but the wrong more subtle,
Seeing all the wrong inside bursts the ego's bubble.
One day there will be no more wrong to see,
Just peace of mind and a life of discovery.

Repentance is God's way, and anyone who tries to imitate it or force it
Will just interfere but never replace it.
Repentance is God's plan for recovery.

That's why outside reassurance and consolation
Will only make you guilty, because they rob the soul of repentance.
Covering up wrong with assurance, reassurance, and affirmations
Interfere with the Light and its redeeming and shaming presence.

The lesson is clear
You can't repent yourself.
Just be willing to be humbled and shed a tear
And wait for God to draw near.

When you are not right inside
Pious words and gestures only support pride.
You become a model of hypocrisy
Because others can see your inconsistency.

In our pride and with our ego's short sight.
We think we have to make something happen with effort and with might.
That is how our ego blocks God's redeeming light.

Our biggest error is resenting His light
Or suppressing what is wrong to keep it out of sight,
When what you should be doing is exposing it to the light,

Just regret your wrong without trying to make yourself right,
Wait for repentance and change in the Light.

And here is something else profound,
When resentment is gone, love is there to be found.
God's love warms the soul and takes away the need.
Now you can forgive others for their misdeeds.

You always craved something from them and resented when they didn't have it.
Now you know why they didn't have love, because they hadn't found it.
You see, when they were little they were victims too
That's why they didn't have love for you.

So now I made what was done to me unimportant,
And became unblocked and even cleaned up my apartment.
I was happy and care free, and moved forward with living.
I had found the answer, and it is this:
To be more forgiving.

And when you forgive others by dropping resentment,
God forgives you, and you find peace and contentment.



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